Tell Tale Heart
By Edgar Allan Poe
TRUE! nervous, very, very dreadfully nervous I had been
and am; but why WILL you say that I am mad? The disease had sharpened
my senses, not destroyed, not dulled them. Above all was the sense of
hearing acute. I heard all things in the heaven and in the earth. I heard
many things in hell. How then am I mad? Hearken! and observe how healthily,
how calmly, I can tell you the whole story.
It is impossible to say how first the idea entered my
brain, but, once conceived, it haunted me day and night. Object there
was none. Passion there was none. I loved the old man. He had never wronged
me. He had never given me insult. For his gold I had no desire. I think
it was his eye! Yes, it was this! One of his eyes resembled that of a
vulture -- a pale blue eye with a film over it. Whenever it fell upon
me my blood ran cold, and so by degrees, very gradually, I made up my
mind to take the life of the old man, and thus rid myself of the eye for
ever.
Now this is the point. You fancy me mad. Madmen know nothing.
But you should have seen me. You should have seen how wisely I proceeded
-- with what caution -- with what foresight, with what dissimulation,
I went to work! I was never kinder to the old man than during the whole
week before I killed him. And every night about midnight I turned the
latch of his door and opened it oh, so gently! And then, when I had made
an opening sufficient for my head, I put in a dark lantern all closed,
closed so that no light shone out, and then I thrust in my head. Oh, you
would have laughed to see how cunningly I thrust it in! I moved it slowly,
very, very slowly, so that I might not disturb the old man's sleep. It
took me an hour to place my whole head within the opening so far that
I could see him as he lay upon his bed. Ha! would a madman have been so
wise as this? And then when my head was well in the room I undid the lantern
cautiously -- oh, so cautiously -- cautiously (for the hinges creaked),
I undid it just so much that a single thin ray fell upon the vulture eye.
And this I did for seven long nights, every night just at midnight, but
I found the eye always closed, and so it was impossible to do the work,
for it was not the old man who vexed me but his Evil Eye. And every morning,
when the day broke, I went boldly into the chamber and spoke courageously
to him, calling him by name in a hearty tone, and inquiring how he had
passed the night. So you see he would have been a very profound old man,
indeed , to suspect that every night, just at twelve, I looked in upon
him while he slept.
Upon the eighth night I was more than usually cautious
in opening the door. A watch's minute hand moves more quickly than did
mine. Never before that night had I felt the extent of my own powers,
of my sagacity. I could scarcely contain my feelings of triumph. To think
that there I was opening the door little by little, and he not even to
dream of my secret deeds or thoughts. I fairly chuckled at the idea, and
perhaps he heard me, for he moved on the bed suddenly as if startled.
Now you may think that I drew back -- but no. His room was as black as
pitch with the thick darkness (for the shutters were close fastened through
fear of robbers), and so I knew that he could not see the opening of the
door, and I kept pushing it on steadily, steadily.
I had my head in, and was about to open the lantern, when
my thumb slipped upon the tin fastening , and the old man sprang up in
the bed, crying out, "Who's there?"
I kept quite still and said nothing. For a whole hour
I did not move a muscle, and in the meantime I did not hear him lie down.
He was still sitting up in the bed, listening; just as I have done night
after night hearkening to the death watches in the wall.
Presently, I heard a slight groan, and I knew it was the
groan of mortal terror. It was not a groan of pain or of grief -- oh,
no! It was the low stifled sound that arises from the bottom of the soul
when overcharged with awe. I knew the sound well. Many a night, just at
midnight, when all the world slept, it has welled up from my own bosom,
deepening, with its dreadful echo, the terrors that distracted me. I say
I knew it well. I knew what the old man felt, and pitied him although
I chuckled at heart. I knew that he had been lying awake ever since the
first slight noise when he had turned in the bed. His fears had been ever
since growing upon him. He had been trying to fancy them causeless, but
could not. He had been saying to himself, "It is nothing but the
wind in the chimney, it is only a mouse crossing the floor," or,
"It is merely a cricket which has made a single chirp." Yes
he has been trying to comfort himself with these suppositions ; but he
had found all in vain. ALL IN VAIN, because Death in approaching him had
stalked with his black shadow before him and enveloped the victim. And
it was the mournful influence of the unperceived shadow that caused him
to feel, although he neither saw nor heard, to feel the presence of my
head within the room.
When I had waited a long time very patiently without hearing
him lie down, I resolved to open a little -- a very, very little crevice
in the lantern. So I opened it -- you cannot imagine how stealthily, stealthily
-- until at length a single dim ray like the thread of the spider shot
out from the crevice and fell upon the vulture eye.
It was open, wide, wide open, and I grew furious as I
gazed upon it. I saw it with perfect distinctness -- all a dull blue with
a hideous veil over it that chilled the very marrow in my bones, but I
could see nothing else of the old man's face or person, for I had directed
the ray as if by instinct precisely upon the damned spot.
And now have I not told you that what you mistake for
madness is but over-acuteness of the senses? now, I say, there came to
my ears a low, dull, quick sound, such as a watch makes when enveloped
in cotton. I knew that sound well too. It was the beating of the old man's
heart. It increased my fury as the beating of a drum stimulates the soldier
into courage.
But even yet I refrained and kept still. I scarcely breathed.
I held the lantern motionless. I tried how steadily I could maintain the
ray upon the eye. Meantime the hellish tattoo of the heart increased.
It grew quicker and quicker, and louder and louder, every instant. The
old man's terror must have been extreme! It grew louder, I say, louder
every moment! -- do you mark me well? I have told you that I am nervous:
so I am. And now at the dead hour of the night, amid the dreadful silence
of that old house, so strange a noise as this excited me to uncontrollable
terror. Yet, for some minutes longer I refrained and stood still. But
the beating grew louder, louder! I thought the heart must burst. And now
a new anxiety seized me -- the sound would be heard by a neighbour! The
old man's hour had come! With a loud yell, I threw open the lantern and
leaped into the room. He shrieked once -- once only. In an instant I dragged
him to the floor, and pulled the heavy bed over him. I then smiled gaily,
to find the deed so far done. But for many minutes the heart beat on with
a muffled sound. This, however, did not vex me; it would not be heard
through the wall. At length it ceased. The old man was dead. I removed
the bed and examined the corpse. Yes, he was stone, stone dead. I placed
my hand upon the heart and held it there many minutes. There was no pulsation.
He was stone dead. His eye would trouble me no more.
If still you think me mad, you will think so no longer
when I describe the wise precautions I took for the concealment of the
body. The night waned, and I worked hastily, but in silence.
I took up three planks from the flooring of the chamber,
and deposited all between the scantlings. I then replaced the boards so
cleverly so cunningly, that no human eye -- not even his -- could have
detected anything wrong. There was nothing to wash out -- no stain of
any kind -- no blood-spot whatever. I had been too wary for that.
When I had made an end of these labours, it was four o'clock
-- still dark as midnight. As the bell sounded the hour, there came a
knocking at the street door. I went down to open it with a light heart,
-- for what had I now to fear? There entered three men, who introduced
themselves, with perfect suavity, as officers of the police. A shriek
had been heard by a neighbour during the night; suspicion of foul play
had been aroused; information had been lodged at the police office, and
they (the officers) had been deputed to search the premises.
I smiled, -- for what had I to fear? I bade the gentlemen
welcome. The shriek, I said, was my own in a dream. The old man, I mentioned,
was absent in the country. I took my visitors all over the house. I bade
them search -- search well. I led them, at length, to his chamber. I showed
them his treasures, secure, undisturbed. In the enthusiasm of my confidence,
I brought chairs into the room, and desired them here to rest from their
fatigues, while I myself, in the wild audacity of my perfect triumph,
placed my own seat upon the very spot beneath which reposed the corpse
of the victim.
The officers were satisfied. My MANNER had convinced them.
I was singularly at ease. They sat and while I answered cheerily, they
chatted of familiar things. But, ere long, I felt myself getting pale
and wished them gone. My head ached, and I fancied a ringing in my ears;
but still they sat, and still chatted. The ringing became more distinct
: I talked more freely to get rid of the feeling: but it continued and
gained definitiveness -- until, at length, I found that the noise was
NOT within my ears.
No doubt I now grew VERY pale; but I talked more fluently,
and with a heightened voice. Yet the sound increased -- and what could
I do? It was A LOW, DULL, QUICK SOUND -- MUCH SUCH A SOUND AS A WATCH
MAKES WHEN ENVELOPED IN COTTON. I gasped for breath, and yet the officers
heard it not. I talked more quickly, more vehemently but the noise steadily
increased. I arose and argued about trifles, in a high key and with violent
gesticulations; but the noise steadily increased. Why WOULD they not be
gone? I paced the floor to and fro with heavy strides, as if excited to
fury by the observations of the men, but the noise steadily increased.
O God! what COULD I do? I foamed -- I raved -- I swore! I swung the chair
upon which I had been sitting, and grated it upon the boards, but the
noise arose over all and continually increased. It grew louder -- louder
-- louder! And still the men chatted pleasantly , and smiled. Was it possible
they heard not? Almighty God! -- no, no? They heard! -- they suspected!
-- they KNEW! -- they were making a mockery of my horror! -- this I thought,
and this I think. But anything was better than this agony! Anything was
more tolerable than this derision! I could bear those hypocritical smiles
no longer! I felt that I must scream or die! -- and now -- again -- hark!
louder! louder! louder! LOUDER! --
"Villains!" I shrieked, "dissemble no more!
I admit the deed! -- tear up the planks! -- here, here! -- it is the beating
of his hideous heart!"
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